2015 – where to start…?

Take a deep breath, I told myself, it’s a brand new year, the world doesn’t need to change…Or does it?
I mean, 2014 saw a lot of change for me, some bad, some good. Firstly, I was challenged with losing my amazing dog of 13.5 years very early on in the year. He was my childhood pet, who had been there through so much with me. This was devastating. But on the other hand my Brother married and we welcomed the loveliest of people into our family – such a great day! I also gave up gluten and dairy in 2014 (bye bye cheese…sob) because they had such a bad effect on me (skin, migraines, tiredness!)Giving this up has made me a better person because now I can function, hooray! But all of these things meant that my world did change. My family also spend Christmas in completely different continents for the first time EVER. What a change…

With so much change for me in 2014 the long break that I saw at the end of the year in the sunshine over the Christmas period and 2 weeks into 2015, with lots of G&T and BBQ’s (the dream?)felt like it was much needed. Anyway, with 3 weeks of doing nothing, my little brain started thinking “why do I burn myself out for the things that I don’t like doing”? We all have them, (don’t we?) those things that we don’t like doing (* okay, there are some things we HAVE to do, like putting loads of washing on, that I can’t escape just yet…) BUT it is important to identify the things in life that don’t make you happy. I have mine, I’m still in the process of working out how to fix that, but at least it’s been identified and I’ve shared it with my loved ones. They’ll help me work it out. For me, I found that giving my brain space on my 3 weeks away, led me to work out what I really wasn’t too happy with.

It’s funny really, the mind and body… sometimes they give us signs but we’re so busy getting on with life we just ignore them. For me, it was totally clear when I came back to my every day life after 3 weeks of sunshine, and I just felt so sick, so drained! I realised, my body was agreeing with me and I realised that I’ve made a good decision with the change that I need to make. Now I have to work out how. That’s the hardest part, right?

2015 for me is about making the change and getting rid of ‘that thing’ that makes me unhappy. What are you doing for 2015?

Right, it’s time for some freshly baked banana bread (GF and DR free) and mint tea 🙂 O.N xx


So, I’m getting a little slack…

I have to say, after being back in work for nearly 2 weeks. I’ve already forgotten to have my me time…. I haven’t posted on here much and I really haven’t taken any pictures. Although one thing that is continually on my mind at the moment is ‘skin’…

So, I’m currently still in work, having a late night catching up with some work and I thought I’d listening to the below video whilst finishing off some of the stats I was putting together for work. Learn whilst working, of course!

It’s an interesting video that gives you a bit of insight and some advice from a nutritionist… It’s nothing new to me as I’ve read a lot of blogs recently, but I like that it’s all in one lovely video. (I’ve already emailed a friend and shared it with her to hear her feedback!)

I was also having an intersting chat with someone in work who agreed that in order to solve the problems on the outside, you need to look within. So perhaps nutrition advice is the way forward?

Interesting thought for me tonight… I’m off home to go and lay on the sofa and mull over what should have been a pilates session tonight.
Have a nice evening and I look forward to hearing any nutrition advice you have to offer 🙂

Skincare disaster…on holiday.

It’s been a while, huh? I’m sorry… I’m not sorry. I vacated (YIPEE)!

I’ve been on holiday and took an absence from blogging for a while. I had really enjoyed starting up my new blog, but I let life get in the way (by which I mean chores, work, you know, the things you have to do but don’t want to, not really….) and then I left the country for warmer climates. I went to Spain, which was amazing. But it didn’t come without a few tears… I’ll tell you about that:

Firstly, I’ll start by saying that I really do need to make more time for blogging. I love it. Secondly, I loved my holiday but my skin got in the way…

I have always had ‘bad skin’ ever since I was about 17 or so and EVERYTIME I fly, my skin gets worse. I just can’t seem to get it right.
So, the Monday morning before I flew, I took a big bottle of green juice with me to the airport, had loads of water, ate a veggie burger before the flight (it got delayed 4.5 hours… yikes!) and more water. In my head, I’d done everything I needed to do in order to stay hydrated. I’m still not sure what I’ve done wrong. Maybe you have advice for me on this one??

At the time, before we boarded I felt really good with my approach. I was confident that was going to go well.

Well, we landed, got to our apartment, I looked in the mirror and I was horrified. Where did this…when did this…WHAT?!
Yep, my entire forehead had broken out. THEN I was allergic to the suncream. Total skincare disaster. So, by Monday evening I was a mess and we’d only just arrived. My confidence was hit… I was planning on wearing zero make up on holiday…urgh!
So what did I do? Firstly, although I’m trying to be hollistic in my approach to skincare I haven’t yet found everything I need (I have another blog about that coming up soon…) So I’d taken some dermalogica samples with me and I think they actually saved the day.

Instead of suncream on my face, I used Dermalogica skin tint with SPF 30. Who wants to burn anyway?? And at nightime I used their clearing gel. They really helped me out when I was in need. And my skin did start to clear up (I even got some kind of a tan, miracle). But I still haven’t quite got my skin back to normal (sigh).

Secondly, and aside from products, I found it really hard to maintain an entirely healthy eating whilst I was out there.  But, I tried. My amazing boyfriend (he puts up with everything!) walked for miles with me until we found a supermarket. We didn’t rent a car as our intentions were to stay by the beach, read and listen to music. Which we did 🙂 … anyway, where was I.. right, supermarket..

We stocked up with….

Breakfast everyday:
A massive water melon
green tea with mint

….whilst sitting on our terrace looking out at the sea, listening to music. It was absolute bliss.

Chocolate (holiday, totally necessary….)

Lunch or Dinner we ate out but rarely both.
Eitherway it was packed with Salmon, prawns or muscles.
But we bought some ‘sin gluten’ pasta which I was really happy to find.

We carried all of this back to our apartment and I felt better knowing that I had some good food to munch on.

I  really love Spanish food, so when we ate out it was so exciting and yummy. I tended to forget about my skin, because I’m lucky enough to have a boyfriend tell me how beautiful I am regardless. That usually makes me feel so much better.
….but seriously, Spain, when will they learn that you don’t cook everything in oil?? Even my ‘green’s were cooked in oil. Not even steamed. But they were yummy and I did enjoy them…guilty!

Anyway, now I’m back and you know where I’ve been. You know that I had a lovely holiday but that I also had to deal with my skin and cried. I’m not alone in that, I know. Do you have any suggestions, thoughts or comments? Let me know, I’d love to find out more about your trials or even connect to share the pain of this darn thing we call ‘bad skin’.

But I do hope that I can find out what causes it soon, I’m turning 28 in a couple of months. All I want for my birthday is not to worry about my skin….. Until another day 🙂


Skin care

Firstly, I know this blog is about my baking, or photography. But this post focusses on neither (sorry!) The reason being, I’ve been focussing on a part of me this week, my skincare, and I wanted to share this with you. So, here goes:

I haven’t said too much about ‘me’, not really. I’d done so for a reason, but I’ll let you into a little something about me…I’m actually 27 years old and I still suffer from ‘bad skin’… I take good care of myself, I eat well (taken to a new level recently, as you can see from my blog) and I exercise…. To sum this up, it’s annoying. It’s annoying because sometimes, you feel like you can’t leave the house and you don’t have the confidence you want to have to get on with life.

Now before you say anything,I do get it, the only person who’s really stopping me from going out or not having the confidence, is me. My friends don’t care / judge me for my ‘bad skin’. But I do. I judge myself. I give myself a really hard time about it. I’ve cried, I’ve not wanted to go into work and I’ve let it take over my life. There are plenty of bloggers out there who experience the same as me. I’m not trying to say that I’m the only one that feels like this, in fact, quite the opposite. It’s hard though, everything around us in our day to day life is telling us to be ‘perfect’. And, you know what? It’s impossible. Your version of perfect is different from my version of perfect and different to somebody else’s, so guess what? You’ll never ‘feel’ perfect or ‘be’ perfect. However, what you can do is make sure that you are the best possible, you. If you want to. And, only do it for you (would be my advice). For me, it’s about being comfortable in my own skin. My skin will never be ‘perfect’ and neither will I. But, I am determined to not let it take over my life.

I have tried everything to help my skin. From heavy medication -which made me feel sad, isolated, unable to move or walk without being in pain…but cleared it for up to 6 months afterwards. (Since then, I’ve been trying to claw back those days without going on this medication. It’s left me with especially sensitive skin that still breaks out. Why did I put myself through 6 months of agony??? It hasn’t helped in the long run and I’m still not sure what causes it.) To every ‘miracle’ cream you could probably consider.

At the moment, I use dermologica products which are great but still hasn’t resolved the whole issue. Due to the ‘heavy medication’ I used 3 years ago my skin is now  really sensitive. It means that most shop bought products are too harsh/heavy and that I still break out but it’s much much harder to ‘cure’.

So, on to the happier side of this post (hooray, you say!) I’ve recently been using coconut oil for quite literally, everything. I say ‘literally’ because, I use it in cooking as the oil base, I use it on my face as a moisturiser, eye make up remover, the ends of my hair to give them a bit of a sprucing and you know what? I don’t get why I haven’t heard about it sooner. I’d recommend checking out this website, this is the brand of coconut oil that I use.

It hasn’t resolved my ‘bad skin’, I’m still working on other areas for that. But this is one great addition to my bathroom and kitchen cupboard that I now can’t live without. It’s also helping with the scaring on my face and to be honest, it’s just helping me feel better about things. I know that it’s 100% natural, it doesn’t react with my skin and it makes me feel comfortable (as well as smelling super nice). What more could I ask for? So my regime is a dermolgica precleanse and cleanser and then topped off with deliciously smelling coconut oil as a moisturiser.

Let me know if you’ve used coconut oil for beauty or if you’re an adult still suffering with ‘bad skin’ and fed up of hearing ‘you’ll grow out of it’…But for me, yoga, healthy food and coconut oil seem to be making me feel happier…and or at least smelling coconutty!!

Enjoy your Sunday 🙂 xx